When Your Heart is Overwhelmed: Watch Yo’ Self

I was so frustrated. I snapped at my son and had to walk out of the room. I was so tired of hearing him complain about school. I sat down in the den and sipped on my coffee. I was tired and overwhelmed.

Psalm 61:2 From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

This Scripture immediately came to mind. I felt overwhelmed in that moment. What do I do? Can you relate to this? The moment when you feel like you are done. You yelled. You said hurtful things. Now, you just want to flee.

Moses. Born a Hebrew, raised as the grandson of Pharaoh. He watched as Pharaoh enslaved his own people. He watched them labor and build. He was looking on when he saw an Egyptian beat a Hebrew. Moses looked all around and when he thought no one was looking he slew the Egyptian and buried him in the sand. Thinking he got away with murder he walked out to watch the Hebrews. He saw two of them fighting. He stepped in and tried to stop the fighting. One of the men spoke up. “Are you going to kill us, like you did the Egyptian yesterday?” (Exodus Chapters 2 and 3)

Moses’ sin wasn’t hidden after all. So what did Moses choose to do? Flee.

I’m not comparing yelling at my kid to murder, but when I sinned and failed, the first thing I wanted to do is flee and I necessarily didn’t want to run to the Lord.

It’s crazy that last night I was studying in James. He tells us to be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to get angry. Anger does not produce the righteousness of God. (James 1: 19, 20)

Right after he tells us, don’t just listen to God’s Word, do what it says. Ouch!

So as I’m sitting being reminded of what I read, I’m confessing I failed God too. I failed to take heed to His Word. In my moment of being overwhelmed I sinned and I know I did.

Thankfully Moses got a second chance. He had an encounter with God that changed the course of history not only for Moses, but the children of Israel.

I’m thankful for my encounter too. No one wants their sin known by the world. Moses’ sin has been retold for thousands of years, so I don’t feel bad for sharing my sin on my blog! I’m sharing because we all mess up. The important thing, that when we do, we confess and repent! Not only did I confess and repent to the Lord I asked my son to forgive me too. His response, he paused, “Let me think about it. Yes. Can you forgive me?”

I need to be reminded of these verses in James, daily. Who am I kidding? I need to be reminded hourly!!

Quick to listen

Slow to speak

Slow to anger

My prayer is when I’m in an overwhelming moment, I’m reminded of the words from James. ❤