The Battle of the Indulge: My Weight loss Journey

I wasn’t always overweight. When I look back at “my glory days” (high school), I probably weighed a little more than my average classmates. High school has a tendency to make you have a poor self image anyways. I felt overweight, but looking back I was at a healthy weight. I started dating my husband in the 10th grade. When we both got our liscense, we weren’t into the partying scene, so we spent our time at fast food restaurants, donut shops and buffets.

The weight slowly rose as I graduated, and I was around 155 lbs. After graduation he left for college, and I had friends who enjoyed eating as much as I did. My boyfriend returned and shortly after we were married and my weight was around 175 lbs. My weight gain was slow. Oftentimes I would diet and be successful, but the weight came back and more!! I worked in a pizza place and later in the mall, so unhealthy foods were at my fingertips!

In 2012 at the age 33 I was 236 lbs when I became pregnant with my son. My doctor was pretty strict and didn’t want me gaining much weight. At the end of my pregnancy, I had gained around 20 lbs putting me at my highest weight ever.

I tried many plans, I would be successful and lose for awhile, but then put it back on and more. Around 2015 I was the most successful and lost around 30 lbs. Then it came back with a vengeance.

In 2018 I started having some issues with my teeth and my eyes were opened to my relationship with food. January always brings resolutions and I knew it was time to change. I weighed 250 lbs. My mom was trying to convince me to try the Ketogenic way of eating. I remember standing in my friend’s kitchen explaining all the reasons that lifestyle could never work for me. I couldn’t see myself never eating a potato again.

I really didn’t know what to do. How do I change? February 1, 2019 I started a weight loss journal. Here’s a snip of my journal entry from that day:

How does one change habits that took years to build? I know number one it takes the Lord. I can’t without Him. No diet, no plan will ever be life long if God isn’t in it. I must face all the habits, all the mind sets, all the sin, all the fears and the pain and hand every single one over to Jesus.

Jesus please show me how to start this journey.

I felt broken. It’s funny to me how the one thing I refused to do, ended up being the very thing God used. I really was feeling that God was telling me to do the Ketogenic lifestyle (I’m not promoting it, its not for everyone). I couldn’t imagine life without potatoes and sugar, but I committed myself to try it for 30 days. I started February 4th weighing 246 lbs.

The first 30 days were amazing, I was down 10lbs. I was being so successful I kept going and I set my first goal to be under 200 lbs and reach 50 lbs lost by our vacation in July. By July 18th I was under 200 and lost 55 lbs.

July 28, 2019

Of course I’m about excited about the accomplishment, but it’s time to focus on some other goals. What will it matter if I’m skinny, but I’m spiritually dead???

The ultimate goal is to live a lifethat glorifies God whether it’swhat I eat, my conversations, etc. Ultimately it should all please the Lord.

I was being successful in my weight loss, It wasn’t just a physical journey, but a spiritual one also. I wanted this to be a time I drew closer to the Lord. I knew I had to draw strength from Him to reach my goal.

It has been about nine months now. It has not been easy, but I’m slowly reaching my goal.

Currently I have been lingering around 179/180 lbs. I never thought I would ever declare my weight to the world, but I’m sharing this because I want to encourage others that change is possible! Many nights in bed I would dream of a healthier, thinner me. It’s weird to see my dreams coming true. My journey is not over, I’m still reaching for the goal I have in mind. I hope you will come along with me.